Why Worry?

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“Look me in my face,
I ain’t got no worries, I ain’t got no worries, I ain’t got no worries…”
– Dwayne Carter

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This week’s blog is more of a personal reflection. I assume that what I feel at times do not only apply to me. That is why I have chosen to share this, with the hope that someone realizes that he/she is not alone and also learn something.
Enjoy 🙂

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Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting time. I feel as if every second I spend not getting buried between books in a library somewhere is counting against me. Sometimes I feel like I’m doomed, for whatever reason. Other times, I just look at where I’ve come from, what I’ve been privileged to go through, and the prospects ahead of me – however few and I am truly grateful.

I feel grateful for many things. To start with, I am grateful that I am still one of the living souls around; I am grateful that, although I’m not where I want to be, I’m not where I used to be. Although I do feel confused by what seems like a blurry future, I am grateful for great support systems around me. Those who have given me the opportunity to learn and put myself in a situation where I have a chance in a competitive world. Parents who have selflessly helped and encouraged me, and then allowed me to go further and experience life even when I thought I had a slim shot at what was ahead of me. Then, the friends I’m lucky to be close with – those who inspire me to be better even without knowing that they do. I have all these to be grateful for.

Now, one may see these things and ask why I often feel the way I claim to. It’s because I am human and I am aware that the world around me is competitive. If you feel like you’re not moving forward, then you’ll be worried about what others are doing, with the fear that you’re being left behind.

Despite this feeling, there’s a part of me that believes that we define our own reality despite what is around us. Yes, what we see around us may be real, but they do not have to define what we do and how we see ourselves. No amount of accolades, or anything else in this world, will convince us of our success if we choose to see failure in ourselves. This is why I often ask myself, “why worry?” As in why worry what others do when we live different lives? Many will like to achieve what I already have, even if I think I haven’t achieved a lot. Why worry and allow what I cannot see to blur what I can see? It is good to dream big and desire greatness, but it is injurious to forget what one has already achieved. If I see myself as a failure, on what will I build the motivation to achieve the greatness that lies ahead of me? I choose, from now on, to remind myself that I am a privileged soul; to know that great success lies before me; to recognize that I can make it there because I somehow made it here. I will continue to move forward and use what I have now as motivation. I am not going to rest on what I have. But, at the same time, I will not belittle or dismiss them. I choose not to worry about what I do not know. God helping me, I will achieve greatness. No worries.